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Monday, May 13, 2019

Nick Break, fiction by M. L. Joy

Larry counted out change from his Crown Royal bag and slid each coin across the sticky bar toward the bartender, Paige.

She read his dispirited expression. “It’s okay Larry. I don’t mind the change.”

He minded.

She brought him a draft in a plastic cup, just as a young girl plunked an empty pitcher on the bar next to him. “Can I have another pitcher, please?” She didn’t look old enough to drink. Pink plastic barrettes held long blond hair out of her face. She smelled of bubblegum and baby powder.

Paige swept up the pitcher and left to refill it.

The girl tilted her head sideways and looked at Larry. “Hi.” Her smile was so broad it should have hurt her face. Her pupils looked like brown M&Ms.

Larry nodded politely, said hey, and then went back to watching the news on the silent TV with text along the bottom he couldn’t keep up with.

She extended her hand. “I’m Chelsie.” A perky cheerleader introducing herself.

All the other bar stools were empty. Why plant herself next to a guy old enough to be her father? Grandfather even.

“Good for you,” Larry said, not looking at her. Why encourage her?

Before he had to endure any more chirping from Chelsie or pay the price for being rude, Paige was back with a full pitcher. The girl left with her beer and Larry turned to watch her skip, literally, back to her friends who were playing pool.

There was a time when Delaney’s was for an older crowd. Men mostly, who sat at the bar watching sports on TV and minding their own business. Back when a beer came in a real glass. Not anymore. Every time he came in Larry wondered why he didn’t find somewhere else to go. Change was hard.

“What the hell was that about?” Larry asked.

“She’s tripping on something,” Paige said, smirking.

Drugs made sense. “Where do they get the money for that shit?”

“They all have jobs, but they also live with mom and dad.”

Larry left home after high school. For better or worse, that’s what his generation did. Some went to college. He went into the service. That’s where he learned to weld and fix heavy equipment, which kept him in work until a couple of months ago. Construction was down.

“Their parents spoil them if you ask me,” Larry said.

Paige crossed her arms over her breasts. “I live with my mom, Larry.”

“Your mom needs you at home. Do you do drugs?”

She shook her head.

“No. I don’t think you’d disrespect your mom like that.”

Paige smiled and patted Larry’s arm. “I’ll get you another beer, Larry.”

Larry looked down at the inch of beer left in his cup. “I’m okay,” he said. He only had change for a couple more and didn’t want to go through it too quickly.

“I’ve got it, Larry.”

He didn’t like that either. His lack of cash was temporary. Tomorrow he would weld some Dumpsters over at the landfill and make enough for his weekly rent with some left over. After that, he’d make the rounds to the construction guys and heavy equipment rental places he’d done work for before. It would work out. He’d go look for work in Miami or as far north as Tampa if he had to. He’d be okay.

A chorus of “Mary” erupted behind Larry. He turned and watched a fireplug of a woman strut the length of the bar waving as if she were in a parade. Some might call her short, white-blonde hair butch, but even an old-timer like Larry knew a haircut was no way to judge a person these days.

She sat at the bar a respectable distance from him.

“What’s going on, Paige?” Mary already had her chainsaw wallet open, flipping through the bills.

“You tell me,” Paige said.

Paige’s frosty tone was usually reserved for guys she knew were going to be trouble.

“How about a whiskey sour?” Mary said.

Paige made the drink with little enthusiasm or comment, then placed it in front of Mary.

Mary slid a bill across the bar. “Keep the change.” She hopped off her stool and went over to the kids playing pool. They exchanged more greetings and hugs.

“You want to know where they get their drugs,” Paige said, leaning on the bar, “there you go.”

Larry grunted. Used to be drug dealers came in two versions: the dressed to impress dude who was doing you a favor, and the back-alley heroin-chic guy with one foot in the grave. Mary looked normal.

“I’m not a fan, but there isn’t much I can do about it,” Paige said.

“Call the cops,” Larry suggested.

“She and my boss are buddy-buddy. I think he trades her his extra pain pills for Viagra.”

Larry had OxyCodone from when he injured his back. He wondered what they would be worth. He took a swig of his beer.

“Larry?” Paige studied him. “Are you okay?”

Of course, he wasn’t okay. He was sick of living on the edge of being homeless day-in and day-out. When he was twenty, he could pretend it was an adventure, but now he was over fifty it was miserable.

“I’m fine. I didn’t thank you for the beer. Sorry,” Larry said.

“No big deal,” Paige said, but there was doubt in her voice. She didn’t believe he was fine, but that was okay with him.

Paige went to check on another customer while Larry snuck a look at the group by the pool table. The kids were not good pool players and seemed to be having too much fun. Mary was on her phone. She headed toward the bathrooms with her palm over her ear. Larry followed her.

Mary was still on the phone when Larry reached the bathrooms. He shuffled a little in hopes she’d end her call so he could talk to her.

She smiled and greeted him with a nod as he approached. Larry mustered a smile. Then she turned her back to him. He didn’t want to look like a creep and didn’t want Paige to see him waiting, so he veered into the men’s room.

He stood at the urinal and undid his belt. He didn’t have to go, but if he stood there long enough, he might. After a few minutes, he felt stupid. The entire idea was stupid. He tightened his belt, flushed and turned to the sink. The water was always cold. He looked past the band stickers covering the mirror. He needed a shave. His crewcut and the gray stubble on his sun-weathered face were almost the same length. He looked run down. Not a surprise. He felt rundown. He dried his hands and opened the bathroom door. Paige hovered outside.

“Everything okay?” he asked.

“I need someone to watch the bar while I pee,” she said.

“I’ll take care of it.”

“Don’t go behind the bar.” She punched open the ladies’ room door behind her and disappeared inside.

“No problem.”

Larry checked the rest of the place for Mary, maybe she was still in the bathroom. He could ask the overly friendly girl, but he couldn’t remember her name, and he wasn’t sure he had the energy to deal with her enthusiasm. Eventually, he just sat in front of his beer and decided her disappearance was a sign he shouldn’t be dealing with her.

Paige came back, and they watched the silent TV while he finished his last beer. He left her five dimes and gave her a wave as he pushed away from the bar and headed to his truck. The parking lot was dark, and the air was still warm and sticky. Winter temperatures had not hit South Florida yet, but the heat would break any day. As he pulled his keys out of his pocket, he noticed the glow of a cigarette near his truck. He didn’t have anything worth stealing, but a frustrated thief could be more dangerous than a happy one.

Mary stepped out from the darkness, exhaling white smoke. “You wanted to talk to me?”

Larry’s answer stuck in his throat. Did he still want to talk to her? Was this a path he wanted to take? He should wait. He had a job welding Dumpsters, and that would hold him over. He felt the weight of his Crown Royal bag, or more specifically, the lack of weight.

“I was just wondering. . .” he said.

“About what?” She flicked her cigarette ten feet across the parking lot. The lit end wobbled through the air like a firecracker.

Larry’s chest ached. He gripped his keys in his fist. “Oxy,” was all he could manage.

“You want some?”

“I have some.”

Mary stepped closer. He could smell the cigarette on her. “How many?”

“Fifty. Maybe more.”

She whistled.

“I didn’t like them.” He didn’t know why that mattered. He swallowed. His mouth was so dry.

“You a cop?” She squinted up at his face.

“No.” Larry gave her a nervous smile.

“What you’re proposing is illegal. You know that?”

Larry nodded. He knew very well the trouble he was getting into.

“Times are tough. I know. You just need the cash.” She looked him over. “Got’em with you?”

Larry shook his head. Why would he carry medicine around he didn’t take?

“Okay. Can you meet me here tomorrow night?” Mary pulled a pack of cigarettes from a pocket in her cargo shorts.

Larry thought of Paige. “Not here.”

“No problem.” She lit a cigarette. “Ever go to The Beach House?”

Larry knew it. Tiki-themed with live reggae music. Touristy. He would never go there. “Sounds good.”

“Ten o’clock. Around the back. Okay?” She started to walk past him toward the bar.

“How much?” Larry asked.

“A couple bucks a pill.” She waited as if he might want to negotiate. What did he know about what the price should be? That was a hundred dollars he could use. “See you tomorrow night,” he said.

***


The Beach House, as its name suggested, was down on the beach, and it was a longer drive than Larry remembered. The small parking lot was filled with sedans, rental cars based on the barcode stickers in the side windows, and a few pickups and Jeeps with big tires, obviously locals. Most of the bar traffic came from the hotels within walking distance. He parked at a bank a block away and walked back. It was almost 10 p.m. according to the clock on the bank sign, so he didn’t have time for a beer, even if he could afford one here. Reggae music thrummed from inside and gained volume every time the door opened. He felt for the bottle of Oxy in his pants pocket, then stepped to the side of The Beach House, and trudged in sand to get to the back.

Like most buildings built near the beach, The Beach House stood on eight-foot stilts. The front used lattice to hide the ugly space under the bar, but the back had no such fa├žade. The telephone-pole-sized beams, with their black pitch and graffiti scars, stood sentinel over the trash and recycling bins. Beyond that rolled a dune of tall seagrass and the dark expanse of the Gulf of Mexico. Mary wasn’t there yet. He still had time to get back in his truck and leave. Forget the whole deal. With his luck, he would run out of fuel on the way home. He waited. A breeze crept lazily from the ocean. It did nothing to cool the air, but it made it smell more of sea salt than beer-bottle swill.

Mary came from the opposite side of the building, the tip of her cigarette visible before she was. She lifted a hand to acknowledge him. Larry nodded before realizing she probably couldn’t see him in the dark.

“Hey, Bud. You by yourself?” Mary asked.

“Just me.” As if Larry had backup.

“Did you bring me anything?” She dropped her cigarette in the sand, stepped on it and moved into the light.

Larry pulled out the amber-colored pill bottle. “Fifty-six,” he said.

“That’s fine.” She pulled a stack of folded bills from her pocket. Larry could not see the exact bills in the dark, but they couldn’t have been organized by denomination. She shuffled through the wad like a bad typist.

“What have we got here?” The voice made them both freeze. A bald man’s face appeared in the dark as he lit a cigarette.

Larry lowered his hand to hide the pill bottle. He didn’t know why he just had a feeling. The one you got when things get more complicated and not in a good way.

“Hey, Boss,” Mary said. She stuffed her cash back into her pocket and turned to face him.

“I was in the neighborhood.” The closer the man got, the bigger he became. He wore a biker vest, with a white tank top underneath and jeans.

“I was just making a deal,” Mary said.

In most cases coming face to face with the Boss made you stand a little straighter, but Mary’s reaction went beyond that. Her voice shook, and she rocked on the balls of her feet as if she were ready to run.

“Is that what you were doing?” As the man got closer, Larry could see the tattoos covering his arms.

“What else would I be doing? He’s too old for me to be doing anything else,” Mary said laughing unconvincingly.

This was none of Larry’s business. He should leave this for them to work out, but he hesitated. Was he now responsible for her just because he had a few pills to sell? What could he do to this guy, besides being a witness or a victim?

“I saw the pill bottle, Mary.” He studied Larry as he said this. Larry looked past him, trying to remember if there were something nearby he could use as a weapon.

“It was nothing, Darrell. It’s just a few pills he wants to get rid of.” Mary’s voice was softer. Purring. Pleading.

“I thought we agreed all buys went through me.”

Larry took a step back.

Darrell’s fist came from nowhere. Larry’s head twisted to the right from the impact, and he dropped to one knee. It didn’t hurt as much as he expected, but it took him a minute to get his eyes to line up again.

“Where are you going, old man?” Darrell asked.

“What the fuck, Darrell?” Mary stepped forward, but Darrell gave her a shove and knocked her to the ground.

Larry wanted to tell him to leave her alone, but before he could say anything a biker boot struck him in the ribs and sand sprayed his face.

“Give me the pills,” Darrell said.

Larry looked down at the pill bottle. They represented a month of groceries to him. It was nothing to this ass-hole. Why fuck with him over this? Larry reached for the pull bottle. He could toss it and run. Darrell had made his point. He would let Larry go. Larry wasn’t sure what it was, him getting dumped at work or his constant struggle to survive since, but he grabbed a fist full of sand instead. As he got to his feet, he threw it and charged the larger man. He gripped Darrell’s leather vest while the man’s hands were still protecting his face and drove him backward until his back slammed into a stilt. Darrell’s breath came out in a grunt.

Darrell grabbed the neck of a clear liquor bottle from an overflowing bin of recycling and swung it. It struck the side of Larry’s head. The thunk was hollow and out of tune. Larry dropped to one knee, the left side of his face on fire with pain. Darrell’s arm swung down for another blow. Larry tried to lift his arm up to block it, but a shooting pain in his chest made him pull it back down. Then everything went black.
***


Larry reached up to weld a stubborn rear door hinge on a 40-yard roll-off. The shooting pain down his side reminded him of the events the night before. He had woken under The Beach House, music still thumping above him, no sign of Darrell or Mary. He then skulked back to his truck and had driven home thankful he was alive. This was a lesson to him not to get involved in crap like that. But his lapse in judgment wasn’t what gnawed at him. Why did Darrell need to rough him up? For what? Make an example of him? Who was Larry going to tell? He couldn’t go to the police because he would incriminate himself. Darrell had to know that. Larry had gone over it all day. The only conclusion he could come up with was Darrell did it because he could. Thinking about it distracted Larry from the pain, but every time he worked through the scenario it made him angrier. When he finished his welding, he collected his money and headed to Delaney’s.

He sat outside the bar for a long time, drinking beer he bought at the Circle-K by his apartment and eating a McDonald’s burger a pinched piece at a time. His jaw hurt like hell. He wanted to cross paths with Mary and find out what he could about her boss Darrell, but she never showed. Around ten, a young kid shuffled up to the front of the bar and waited. His pants hung off his ass, wallet chain down to his knee, his arms as thin and pail as the straps of his wife-beater. A guy in a landscaping shirt and pants came out of the bar to meet him. They did an exchange, cash for a plastic baggie. They didn’t even pretend to hide the drug exchange. Was this dealer Mary’s replacement? Had Darrell taken her off the street because of Larry? Or had he taken her out permanently? Suddenly the burger wasn’t sitting well in Larry’s stomach, and his beer had gone warm. He needed to take a piss.

Larry pulled at the latch on his door just as a black Escalade drove up in front of the young drug dealer. He yanked the door shut, luckily his dome light hadn’t worked in years, and waited to see who the driver was. The dealer rounded the front of the SUV, holding his pants up by the crotch. The tinted window of the Escalade slid down as he approached. A tattooed arm reached out and grabbed the back of the kid's neck in greeting. The knuckles had fresh cuts on them. Larry’s intestines started to wriggle. It was Darrell.

Larry inhaled and forced himself to exhale slowly. This was what he had wanted, to find Darrell? What now? He felt like he was going to shit his pants. Which made him want to stick with it even more. He could follow Darrell, but then what? It wouldn’t accomplish anything if he got his ass beat again.

Darrell drove off, leaving the kid standing in the middle of the parking lot. Larry turned the key in the ignition, but the old truck did nothing but complain. He turned and watched Darrell stop at the exit, then turned the key again. He stomped on the accelerator, swearing under his breath. The truck thought about denying him again, but then it came to life. Larry checked if Darrell’s drug dealer had noticed the roar, found him talking to a customer, and pulled out to go the opposite direction. He didn’t want the kid to get suspicious or too good a look at him. He got onto the main drag using another exit and end up behind Darrell’s SUV, with two cars between them. Larry let out a sigh of relief. He could do this.

Darrell’s process was efficient and eventually predictable. He would pull into the parking lot of a bar, one of his people would come to his driver’s side window, they would exchange pleasantries and sometimes a knapsack or envelope. Luckily most of the parking lots were full and Larry pulling in wasn’t out of place. A couple of times Larry drove past and waited on a side street a block or two away to keep from being too obvious.

Around two in the morning Darrell drove inland on a county road for thirty minutes, away from the coastal bars and plazas. It seemed he was done with his collections. Larry’s gas gauge needle rode on empty, and he spent half the time second-guessing if he should give up and stop at a gas station. He hadn’t prepared to follow the guy all over hells creation. Finally, he decided to look for a road or driveway to turn around in. He would have to try again another night. Then Darrell’s brake lights came on.

Larry pulled his foot off the gas. His stomach pressed on his bladder. Did he notice someone was following him? Did he live out here?

Darrell took a right off the main road, and his Escalade disappeared behind some trees lining the road. Larry coasted slowly past the spot. One hundred feet off the road was the entrance to a Zip Storage. The automated gate was already opening. Larry watched as Darrell drove through the gate, turned left down a row of gray corrugated storage units, and stopped at the end of a row. Larry turned off his lights and coasted to a stop. Darrell got out of his SUV, unlocked the orange garage door, and rolled it up. He disappeared into the darkness of the unit for a moment, then headlights came on, and a silver luxury 4-door sedan pulled out and past the SUV.

When Darrell went back to the SUV. Larry pondered why Darrell had changed into a suit and tie as he watched him back the big black vehicle into the storage unit, then shut and relock the door. When Darrell reentered the sedan and drove toward the facility exit, Larry decided this was as far as he wanted to follow the drug dealer. Larry pulled back onto the road, moving away from the storage facility entrance, watching his rear-view. In a short time, Darrell sped away in the opposite direction. Larry kept his headlights off. There was enough moonlight he had no trouble seeing the road. Once Darrell’s tail lights were gone, Larry executed a 5-point turn in the middle of the narrow road and headed back toward the Zip Storage.

He should call the cops and have them raid Darrell’s storage unit. Could they get permission to do a raid on his word alone? He didn’t think so. Besides, he’d have to tell them why he was following Darrell in the first place and that wouldn’t make him look good. He supposed the best he could do was make some trouble for Darrell himself.

Just before Larry reached the Zip Storage entrance, he found an access road that ran along the back fence of the facility and backed into it. He wasn’t sure what he was about to do, but it was probably better if his license plate wasn’t facing the road. He stepped out of his truck into the muggy night air, grabbed his portable tanks and tool belt out of the bed and slung them over his shoulder. The aluminum tube gate blocking the access road was padlocked, but like most gates out in the county, it was meant to keep vehicles out not people. The fence post by the gate was so loose he barely had to move it to squeeze it and the fence.

The grounds of the storage facility were brightly lit, but the lighting didn’t spill past the security fence. It looked like a prison yard. The house where the caretaker lived was at the other end by the gate. Larry approached the chain-link fence behind Darrell’s unit. If there were cameras, he didn’t see any. There was a small strip of pavement between the eight-foot fence and back of the storage building. Larry used his bolt cutters to cut an opening in the chain-link and stepped through. He dropped his gear at the base of the wall of the storage building and knocked lightly on the corrugated siding. What a beautiful sound. He couldn’t remember the last time he was this excited. He slid on his gloves and welder’s goggles, turned the knobs on his acetylene, and lit the end with his striker. Flame shot from the end as the acetylene ignited. He squeezed the blast trigger and adjusted the oxygen until he had a perfect blue feather.

The torch cut through the metal siding like a snake through water and about as straight, but Larry wasn’t looking to make it pretty. He made a small oblong notch the size of a mail slot, extinguished his torch, and lit the inside of the garage with his flashlight. Nothing was in the way, so he relit his torch and started cutting a larger opening, using the slot as a handhold. While he was cutting along the bottom, he heard voices. He quickly extinguished the torch and listened. The voices came from the front of the building.

“I’m going to need coffee if we’re going to drive all night,” a male voice said.

Larry heard a garage door roll open. He held his breath. It was the unit next to Darrell’s.

“Freakin whaaa. It’s gonna be worth it,” a second man said. “I talked to Bobster today, and he says the Snook are big and hungry.”

“They better be, or I’ll fall asleep on the boat.”

There was the clank of trailer connecting with a hitch.

“Why did I invite you again?”

“Because your wife wouldn’t let you drive alone.”

“Just hook the chains and connect the taillights.”

Larry waited for the sound of the garage door closing and then listened as a truck drove away. Once he was sure his visitors were gone, he went back to cutting the opening in the back of the storage unit. After the top, bottom, and right side were cut he pushed the metal siding to the left like a screen door. He shined his light inside. The back of Darrell’s black Escalade dominated his view. Along the back wall was a workbench piled with pill bottles of all sizes and colors, cell phones, and computer equipment. Underneath the bench was a generator and several black trash bags stuffed to capacity.

Larry squeezed between the back of the truck and the workbench and shined his light on the pill bottles. If he could find his pills, he could take them and go, but there were so many. He picked up a bottle that looked like his and read the label. It wasn’t his, but more importantly, it was empty. He picked up another and shook it. Empty. Another. Empty. He swore under his breath. He grabbed a flowered backpack just behind them and emptied the contents. Plastic bags of pills fell out along with several rolls of cash. He stuffed the cash into his front pockets. If he couldn’t find his drugs, he would take the money he was owed.

Farther down the workbench was a bill counter like in a bank. He was disappointed to find it empty, but next to it was a black gym bag. It was unzipped. He peeked inside and found it full of banded bills. Orange for ones, red for fives, yellow for tens, and violet for twenties. It was impossible to count how much there was. There were more orange and red bands than yellow and violet, but it would be enough for him to get out of town and start over. He zipped the bag and headed toward the back-exit he had created.

Larry stopped with one foot out of the storage unit. He wanted to do more. He wanted to make Darrell pay more. Then he noticed a half-dozen black garbage bags hanging from the rafters. He tossed the duffle out with his tools and stepped back into the storage unit. He shined his light up. The rectangular shapes pressed into the black plastic were unmissably bundles of money. It was much more than Larry could carry, but he bet Darrell would miss it if it were gone.

He went back to the workbench and shinned his light underneath. Now those black trash bags made more sense. Showing up at a bank with trash bags of cash would certainly draw unwanted attention, so Darrell was forced to hide it in storage. Larry looked around the generator and found a red plastic 5-gallon gas can. It wobbled in his grip when he picked it up. It had plenty of gas for what he wanted to do. His adrenalin ran high again.

He tore open the money bags under the workbench. This money was not banded and he poured gas inside. Then he doused the length of the workbench as he moved over to the hanging money bags. He untied the nylon rope for each and lowered them to the ground. He tore one open. Lots of banded cash just like he thought. He pulled his T-shirt over his mouth. The gas fumes were getting thick. He poured gas in five of the bags, then dragged the sixth out with him. Heck with starting over, this much cash would set him up for life.

Once outside he took a couple of breaths to clear his head. This was going to be a fireball. He couldn’t move all his gear in one trip, so he left the garbage bag of cash and moved everything else past the fence to the edge of the woods. He came back with his striker. The fumes coming out through the back door he had cut were fierce. He covered his mouth and nose with his shirt and moved quickly to the bags next to the SUV and lit the farthest one with his striker. The second and third bag ignited on their own and Larry rushed outside for safety. Black smoke billowed out the rear opening. He reached in over the workbench and squeezed his striker. The gasoline ignited and traveled along the workbench to the bill counter with a satisfying whoosh. The light of the flames reflected off the back of Darrell’s SUV. That’s when Larry noticed the bound hands pressed against the glass of the rear door.

He didn’t hesitate. He ducked in beneath the flames eating away at the workbench. His gloves protected his hand as he reached for the rear door latch on the SUV, but he could feel the hair on his arm curling as it singed. He was thinking “please, don’t be locked”, as he yanked on the door latch. The rear door swung up but hit the edge of the workbench and stopped. A pair of pale hands fell out of the small gap, bound with a black tie-wrap. The left side of his face and ear felt like they might start to bubble at any moment. He dropped onto his belly. From there he could see how little space he really had to squeeze the body through. It made him think of cats and the small spaces they could get through.

He grabbed the hands and pulled. The arms came easy, and Mary’s white-blonde head appeared, but then her shoulders became jammed between the bumper and door molding. He wasn’t sure if she was already dead or just unconscious, but she wasn’t in a position to help him. Wood cracked and popped above him. The bags of money under the workbench ignited, blowing charred paper and plastic in his direction. His eyes burned. He turned his back against the heat and positioned his hands to push and pull at Mary’s torso. He might dislocate something, but at least she’d be alive.

She dropped out of the SUV like a newborn calf. Her hips landing on his chest and her shoulder into his groin. That knocked more than just the wind out of him. The inhale of burning air sent him into a coughing fit. He watched through tear-filled eyes as Mary looked around, realized the situation, and looked back at him, her eyes wide. Larry yanked his strait-blade from his belt and cut the tie-wraps binding her hands and feet. Then he used it to point toward the opening in the back wall. They both crawled to the exit and out into the clean night air.

They both lay on their backs gasping.

“What the fuck, old man?” Were her first words.

He didn’t answer.

Mary watched as flames and smoke poured from the opening Larry had cut in the back wall of the storage unit. “Darrell is going to kill you,” she rasped.

Larry suspected that was true. “We should move back before the SUVs fuel tank blows,” he said.

“Sure,” she agreed.

Larry got up and when he turned Mary was already on the other side of the chain-link fence, and she had his black garbage bag of money. She wasn’t the same woman who strode through Delaney’s. Her confidence replaced by a rabbit-like posture as if she might bolt into the woods at any moment.

“That’s mine, Mary,” Larry said stepping to the opening in the fence.

She took a few steps back. “Darrell’s actually.” She seemed younger somehow.

“You gonna give it back to him? Get back in his good graces?”

She shook her head and gave him a look like that was a stupid idea. “Fuck him.”

“I saved your life,” Larry added inching toward her.

“And I appreciate that.” She moved back maintaining the distance between them. “I really do. Now I’m going to save yours. If Darrell finds out you did this, he’ll hunt you down. This way I can make sure that doesn’t happen.”

“With all that cash I could--"

The force of the blow hit Larry from behind and lifted him off his feet. He reconnected with the ground a few feet away and skidded on his chest another yard. Large sheets of corrugated metal dug into the grass around him, and smoldering pieces of paper drifted in the air like a kaleidoscope of butterflies. He scrambled for cover in the woods. His gear was still there. Even the black canvas bag of money. He searched for Mary’s body in the grassy strip between the woods and the fence. The light and smoke of the flames made it impossible to see more than a few yards. Maybe the blast didn’t hit her as hard. Maybe she got away.

He listened for sirens, they had to be on their way, but the roar and crackle of the fire consuming his surroundings drown out any other sounds. The groundcover to his right caught fire. The nearest tree erupted like a neglected Christmas evergreen. Flames jumped up to block his view of Zip Storage and spread quickly to each side of him. He snatched his tanks and tool belt away from the encroaching flames. In moments he would be surrounded. He looked down. Flames danced on the black canvas bag. The money inside was his chance at a new beginning. He grabbed the handles with his gloved hand and headed toward his truck. The handles snapped after two steps and dropped to the ground. The bag still burned on one end. Larry stomped the flames out, grabbed the body of the bag and started running through the woods as best he could.

He placed the tanks and tools into the bed of the truck. As he tossed the canvas bag onto the front seat, he realized how light it was. In fact, it was empty. The burned end was completely open and had allowed the money to fall out as he ran. He looked back into the woods. The fire had claimed the path he had taken out. There were several of his bills hanging onto the brush next to the gate. As he thought about going back for them, they burst into flames and disappeared. A sign he should be satisfied with getting out alive.

Larry hopped into his truck and dug into his pocket for his keys. His fingers hit the wad of bills he had stuffed there. He had forgotten about it. He pulled out the second money roll from the opposite pocket. Not a windfall, but between the two he could get by. He stuffed the cash into his Crown Royal bag on the passenger’s seat. His truck started on the first try. He pulled onto the pavement, passed the Zip Storage entrance and headed back toward town. He knew there was a gas station at the intersection a mile ahead, along with a sign for Interstate 75. With any luck, he would be halfway to the state line by sunup. He had heard construction was on the rise in Atlanta.


M.L. Joy is a graduate of the Stonecoast MFA Creative Writing program and a board member of the Florida Chapter of the Mystery Writers of America, where he is the co-chair of their annual mystery writing conference, SleuthFest (SleuthFest.com). He is a professor of English at Florida SouthWestern State College and equally at home behind a drum kit as he is a teaching podium.

Monday, May 6, 2019

The Blind, fiction by Russell Thayer

The waitress studied the man seated at his customary window table. She’d caught him looking at her three or four times since taking his order. There. He looked at her again.

She’d watched the man all week. He’d visited the restaurant seven or eight straight weekdays, always ordering the same item off the lunch menu. He wore the same well-pressed suit and grey hat, which he’d always place on the same hook, as if he were born to do that. Maybe there wasn’t much to figure out. He was always alone. Perhaps he was nobody, like her. As tall as a Swede, and quite good-looking, he resembled poor, dead Leslie Howard with his tidy crown of blonde curls and high forehead. And he’d been generous to her on one occasion.

That incident had taken place the first day he came into the restaurant, and what he’d given the girl was a welcome conversation. He said he thought her English accent made her sound both scholarly and stylish, though she hadn’t been in an English schoolroom since 1940. Hong Kong. That was almost six years ago. She was now eighteen and under the impression that her once proper accent had gone flat after years of being ground into the earth by a horde of coarse-mouthed Yanks inside the prison walls of Santo Tomas. Manila. She knew she wasn’t stylish, didn’t look like much, but it was nice of him to say. The man then asked her what she liked to do with her free time, which made her heart bounce, though she didn’t think he was getting fresh. She explained that she liked to go to the movies on Sundays, her day off, or walk down to the Fillmore neighborhood after work to listen to the Negro Jazz bands go crazy in the night. She admitted that she was a pianist herself, and he nodded with high opinion, suggesting they might go out sometime to do one or two of those things she liked to do. The girl thought she’d like to go to the man’s apartment with him, if he ever asked her, but nothing had come of his apparent teasing, and he’d never talked to her again, other than to make his daily order.

Now he waved an arm over his head as if he were drowning. She hoped there wasn’t anything wrong with the veal. He always ordered the veal. The cook never made a mistake.

She hurried to his table. “Is there a problem?”

He smiled. “I want to talk to you.”

“There’s nothing left to tell.”

“Just listen.” He smiled again, and she listened. “Saturday evening, this Saturday, the 22nd, there’s a Christmas party for the employees of the engineering firm where I work. It’s usually quite an evening.” He looked at her hands, which were clasped in a knot over her pelvis. “I was wondering if you might like to go with me. As my date.”

“Why me?” He was a good ten years older. She knew she was thin, shapeless.

“Look, I’m not much for parties, but the guys have been brow-beating me all week. I’m not seeing anybody right now. I need a date. You seem like a lively girl. Why not?”

She cleared her throat. “What time is the party? Mind you, I work until ten on Saturday.”

The man shrugged. “People should be pretty high by then, but it’ll go half the night. Ten’s fine. Shall I pick you up? Where do you live?”

“I live right here. Upstairs with the owner, but I’m not allowed to let anyone in after we close. I’ll meet you on the sidewalk.”

The man nodded while the girl stood frozen in place. It was the first time after seven months in the city that a man or boy had asked her out on a proper date. The men at the clubs where she drank beer and tossed her head in time to the music didn’t count. They just wanted to take her straight to bed, hungry for a good girl out of her environment, but she wasn’t having any of that. This man wanted to spend an entire evening with her. Was he mad?

“What’s your name?” He smiled again, making a riot in her heart.

“Maggie Bates,” she said, sticking out her hand.

The man gathered her fingers in a gentle grip. “Richard Carlson. May I have the check?”

***


Richard arrived by taxi the following Saturday, promptly at ten. Maggie waited at the curb, nervous in a borrowed red dress and unpracticed makeup. Mrs. Bragana, the Italian owner of the restaurant, had helped the girl arrange her lifeless copper hair into a surprising pile on the top of her head.

“Don’t you have a purse?” Richard raised an eyebrow as his date climbed into the cab.

“Will I need money?” Maggie had learned to keep anything of value in her pockets, to be fought for if someone ever tried to take it from her. She rarely went out with more than the price of a movie and a Coca Cola. Men paid for her beer and smokes at the Club Alabam or the Texas Playhouse. Strangers didn’t scare her much. Other than a key to the restaurant door safety-pinned to the inside of her brassiere, Richard wouldn’t find anything he could use on her dead body, if that was his plan for the evening.

During the rollercoaster ride over hard, glittering hills, Maggie smoked her last two cigarettes, watching Richard out of the corner of her eye as he prattled on about the passing landmarks.

She interrupted him. “Mrs. Bragana asked me why a handsome man like you doesn’t have a girlfriend or wife to take to the party. I told her to mind her own business.”

Richard smiled, but stopped talking.

The taxi stopped finally in front of a Victorian row house near the marina, one of many similar structures built in steps up a gradually inclining street. Light from the house roared onto the sidewalk along with shrill voices and dance band music from a radio or turntable. A sour sea-breeze urged the couple up the high wooden steps to a covered porch.

Inside the open doorway, a giddy pack of men had ambushed a woman as she stepped into the house, squarely under a sprig of mistletoe. The woman under attack was at least forty, and allowed herself to be kissed in turn as Maggie and Richard waited on the threshold. After being waved inside Maggie stood rigidly in position as one oily-haired stranger after another tried to push his tongue into her mouth. The confrontation made her a little sick in her stomach.

Richard, not taking part in the exhibition, rescued his date when she began to grow a little cross. Maggie gaped at him as he led her down a hallway thick with paintings, leafy plants, and heavy oriental rugs. Was there something wrong? She would have happily let him kiss her.

He stopped to re-pin a loose strand of her hair. “I’m sorry you had to run the gauntlet like that.”

“I’ve had worse.”

“You’re a funny girl.”

“Not really.”

Richard smiled, tugging at her arm. “Let’s find you a cocktail.”

***


A large man with a patchwork of grafted skin pulled tight across his lower face, neck, and hands fabricated cocktails in the bustling kitchen. Wearing a white cotton apron, he worked at a chopping block island, surrounded by thirsty partiers. An army of varied bottles stood at attention, but the preferred cocktail that evening seemed to be the whiskey sour. Maggie, accustomed to the inexpensive Lucky Lager offered as a lure at the clubs, had never tasted a fancy cocktail. She was too young to order hard drinks for herself, and would never waste her own money on such things. The people around her laughed and swayed as they drank, not a care in the world. The men were all good-looking. It was like being in a movie. The room was full of the smell of lemons, and fresh lemons always made Maggie feel happy and healthy. She readily agreed to a whiskey sour, marveling at the ratio of bourbon to juice. The scarred barman poured a dollop of clear syrup into the mixture before shaking up her special allotment. The first gulp ignited a fire in her stomach. After another swallow, Maggie smacked her lips at the sweet tartness, tossing an approving nod to the manufacturer, suddenly very excited to be with well-to-do people, successful adults with fine jobs and big plans, enjoying life for a bit as a grown-up herself in a lovely city at the edge of a vast, astonishing country.

While licking at the rim of her glass, wondering where the fruit had come from at this time of year, Maggie slipped her arm through Richard’s. She could tell by the gentle pressure that it pleased him.

***


Cheerful flames danced in the living-room fireplace. Trays of cookies, fruitcake, and caramels winked from satin-covered card-tables. A perfectly tapered tree stood in the corner, covered in glass balls, popcorn strings, and peppermint sticks. Sparkling strands of tinsel hung from the ceiling. Maggie thought of icicles when she looked up, sipping her cocktail, recalling her father’s long-ago promise of a Dickensian winter holiday in England, before the war. She’d never seen snowfall. She’d never been to England. Her father was dead. Shaking her glass, listening to the pretty tinkle of ice, she looked around the room, content to be where she was right then.

Richard introduced Maggie to a number of tipsy men with names like Pratt, Dingle, and Blotto, but she had no intention of remembering anyone. She knew no one would remember her.

A woman staggered into a card-table, clutching the tablecloth, then pulling an array of cookies onto the floor before joining them. People laughed as the woman struggled to get up. One man kept her down by putting his foot on her bottom. The band music was eventually turned off as a tall man with a heavy beard sat down at a piano to lead them through a round of Christmas carols. Maggie, fighting an urge to smash the keyboard cover onto his clumsy fingers, sang along with the others, putting the sour notes out of her mind while she drank.

As night turned to early morning, Maggie left Richard’s side every twenty minutes to return to the crowded kitchen for another cocktail. She waited at the side of the wooden butcher block, men lurching against her, crowding her while they joked with friends. She was the youngest female in the house. Perhaps the most innocent. She’d caught gentlemen up to age sixty staring at her long neck and smooth flesh. The women stared just as hard, gathering in small gangs, whispering, their lipstick vivid on flared lips. Many of the women were drunk, and looked at Maggie as if they already knew something horrible about the girl.

At one point, in front of the fire, a large group began to share war stories. Not all the men had served, but there was much boasting about who had fought where and how bad it had been. Maggie blurted out during a lull in the competition that she’d been a prisoner for three years in Manila. Immediately a woman asked if she’d been raped by Jap soldiers, and the room grew very quiet, very warm. This was often the first question people asked when they heard she’d come out of the war in the Pacific. Maggie was tired of answering it. After a moment, she replied that she’d never been raped, and the focus of the crowd shifted to other topics of conversation, no one interested in all the things that had been done to her.

Richard settled into a pattern of good-natured jousting with his workmates. The men began to complain about a particular engineering project they were embroiled in, overusing terms like groyne, backfill, and screwpile, which soon annoyed the girl. Suddenly bored with men, and tired of the flaunted jewels and powerful perfume rising off of their high-heeled wives or girlfriends, Maggie developed an urgent curiosity about the house, detaching herself from Richard’s arm to float down the long central hallway on her flat soles.

Various rooms grew off this inner trunk. Maggie stopped first in the study, where she’d thrown her jacket upon arrival. In the corner of the small room, a leather couch was buried under a mound of furs and elegant winter dress coats. Enough light came from the hall so Maggie could choose a sable jacket from the pile, pulling it on over her dress. It was silk-lined, and it fit her well. The fur was soft in her fingers, the texture not unlike her own hair. There was no mirror in the room, but she liked the way she thought she looked. She could smell the woman and the animal together around her shoulders, and it made her tingle to feel them both so close to her own skin. A silver-clad cigarette lighter and a half pack of Chesterfields filled one of the inner pockets. Without thinking much, she dropped them both into the side pocket of her dress before tossing the jacket back onto the pile.

The next room down the hall was a bedroom. The door had been closed when she found it. After poking her head inside, she made out the bed in the dim light. She glanced down the hall, then entered the room, shutting the door with a soft click. After settling onto the high bed, spreading her arms to feel the tufted chenille pattern under her palms, she could tell that a woman lived in the house. After looking through the dresser drawers, feeling the thin silk of the woman’s undergarments and stockings, she stood at the window for a bit, watching the clouds and moon interact.

To the side of the bedroom, Maggie found a private bath. The door was open a crack, the space inside faintly illuminated by a small nightlight. Maggie entered and closed the door, turning the lock. She lit a cigarette, cracking the window a few inches. After turning on the light and pushing some of her hair around in front of the mirror, she opened the medicine cabinet. A bottle of aspirin stood on the top shelf. She emptied a dozen tablets into her hand, chewing one bitter pill before dropping the remainder into her pocket. A plain box on the middle shelf drew her attention. She opened it to discover a supply of prophylactics. Two of them followed the aspirin into her pocket. The sound of approaching footsteps gave Maggie a start. Someone rapped on the door. Maggie lifted the heavy lid of the toilet tank and dropped her cigarette into the water.

A woman spoke with muffled annoyance. “This is a private bathroom.”

Maggie used her American voice. “I’m sorry, honey. I didn’t see another one.”

“I don’t know how you missed it. It’s right there in the hallway. The door’s open and the light is on.” The woman’s voice faded as she walked away. “If you’re being sick in there, please don’t wipe your mouth on my towels.”

***


“Where did you find her?”

Maggie’s ears strained toward a group of men clustered on the opposite side of the Christmas tree.

“Who? Oh. We’ve been going out for three months.” It was Richard who answered.

An older fellow spoke next, his hand on Richard’s back as he leaned in to question him. “Did you pluck her from a high school playground?”

“What? What do you mean by that?”

“Good Heavens, man, she’s fifteen, if a day.”

Maggie moved more deeply into the tree.

“Oh, she’s older than that.”

“How old is she, Richard?” another asked. “Has she got any hair on her yet?” A few men chuckled at the joke.

Richard took a long drink. Maggie felt a twinge of pity for him, for his not having asked or even considered such a thing as the age of the girl he was supposed to be dating. She watched the coming lie begin to press down on him, making his eye twitch a little, like a mouse caught behind the kitchen stove by a crowd of mischievous cats.

“Easy, Richard.” A tall fellow patted his back. “No one’s going to call the cops.”

“She’s twenty, Vince.” Richard took another swallow of his cocktail as the men around him snorted with disbelief.

The bearded pianist, introduced at some point simply as Wheeler, lurched unsteadily toward Richard, his finger aiming for the man’s nose but finding his upper lip instead. He chuckled at what he was about to say, then said it. “You claim she’s a girl, but I think she’s built more like a boy, in case you hadn’t noticed.”

Maggie reddened at the additional insult. She was eighteen and very aware that her chest had not filled out to much effect. A quarter cup of rice a day would do that to a growing child. She was a girl. She did have breasts. Men had gripped them.

She would show the bastards, Maggie thought as she came around the tree, making a display of discovering Richard. “There’s my man,” she declared with the earthy gusto of Rita Hayworth, putting her arms around Richard’s middle while snuggling into his chest. “I’m beat to my socks, honey. Take me home to your cozy apartment. I want to curl up in that big bed of yours and not crawl out until Spring.”

The uproarious laughter which followed her performance caused her brow to wrinkle. She pulled away from Richard, who looked down at her, a sad smile on his face. The room became a very quiet place, the crowd waiting for his response. Maggie turned, trying to comprehend the rosy faces around her, but much of the space was out of focus. Everyone seemed to be staring at her, the women with their mouths open.

Richard touched her hair. “I live in a house with my mother. Everyone knows that. But thanks for trying.”

The crowd roared again. Trying? Maggie couldn’t understand why that was funny, and nearly stumbled over a chair as she dashed through the swinging kitchen door.

The scarred barman waited for duty at the butcher-block island in the center of the room. He and Maggie were alone for a change, and she felt suddenly safe in the warm kitchen refuge, with its sanitary white tile and red linoleum floor. It was like an abattoir, she thought. With whiskey sours. She laughed out loud at the juxtaposition.

Through a window over the sink, a bit of downtown flickered hopefully in the distance, around the edge of a rising hill. Maggie tried to orient herself toward home, but didn’t know where that was. Her small room waited over that way, somewhere in the lights. She knew that much. Maybe Richard would take her to a hotel before dawn, let her drowse like a baby in a big bed after doing what he needed to do to her. But she knew he wouldn’t. It was over. She had humiliated him somehow and he would never be anything to her.

Maggie noticed a door to the back porch. She looked through the window again. Steps travelled down to a small backyard where a gate led to the street.

Could she find her way back to the restaurant?

“Oh, barman, Sir? May I go out to the porch?” She was ready to run all night.

“Why don’t you stay inside with me, sweetheart? Have another drink. My name’s Eddie.”

Maggie strode to the edge of the island with a brisk nod, soon rapt as the patchwork hands split fruit with a small bone-handled knife. She licked her lips as Eddie ground the lemon halves against the juicer, turning her pale gaze onto the quilt of skin which made up his cheeks, wanting to hold his chin in her hand and whisper that he was lucky to have his eyes.

He returned the keen study as he finished. “You’re awful cute with those little girl freckles. How ‘bout we go back to my place for a private party. I’ll pour some whiskey in your bellybutton. Then we’ll see what happens.”

Maggie felt a rush of heat on her neck. “No, thank you. I have a date. I’m going home with him in case you don’t understand how these situations work.”

“That drip? I bet he don’t know which end of you is which, and what for.”

Eddie handled the shaker in a manner Maggie thought quite suggestive, then poured the contents into a dirty lowball glass. He was drunk, too, or maybe it was she who tipped the tumbler so haphazardly that some of the tepid contents soaked her hand. While Eddie watched her, Maggie sucked the whiskey off her sticky fingers, one by one, staring back at him with cloudy blue eyes.

“You little bitch.”

Maggie drained the glass. Her skin prickled. The room began to fluctuate. Richard had been sweet to her under the tinsel, touching her hair and allowing her to be foolish in front of everyone. He could fill her bellybutton with whiskey in the big bed, in the posh hotel. She would even open her eyes for him.

Eddie watched her, a wicked smile on his lips. Maggie didn’t like it.

“I heard you out there. I bet the Japs done you over.” He held up his fist, his pinky extended. “I bet you like them little monkeys.”

She raised her eyebrows. The men certainly talked about her readily enough. “No Jap ever touched me, Eddie, old boy, except to slap my face for not bowing down in the street. As to being done over, as you like to call it, yes, I was raped for a few hours once, if that makes you happy, but it was by American soldiers, my liberators. After three years in that bloody prison camp, I guess it was my way of thanking them.”

Eddie shrugged. “Don’t blame me, girlie. I done my stretch in Europe.” He winked. “You made out better’n them Jews I saw.”

Maggie bit her lower lip to keep herself from spitting at the man. Yes, she had lived in better conditions than the Jews in their Nazi camps. She’d been told the very thing a thousand times. She was about to explain to ignorant Eddie that being starved slowly to death was not necessarily a better fate than being gassed or shot, when Richard burst through the swinging door, followed by his friend, Vince.

Vince tried to grab Richard’s shoulder. “Look, man, I don’t care what you are.” Bearded Wheeler came next through the door, bellowing like a cow. “This town is getting to be rotten with guys like you, and I’m sick of it. Do you hear me? Sick of it. Why’s the Army gotta discharge all its head cases here in my home town, for Christ’s sake? I’m sick of looking at them on the street. Sick of them looking at me.” Wheeler turned to Maggie. “And you’re no better, young lady. Where’d Dickie pick you up? Down on Pacific Avenue?”

Eddie pushed past Maggie to confront Richard. “I knew it. I knew the minute you walked in here, you gutless three-letter shit-heel.” Weaving on shaky legs, he laughed. “And your whore here thinks she’s gonna earn five bucks later.”

“Please don’t call her that.” Richard’s voice quavered.

“Take it easy, Eddie,” Vince demanded, stepping in front of the angry barman, who was now pointing his finger into Richard’s face.

“We threw a couple you guys off the fantail of our transport one night. Never even heard ‘em hit the water.”

Richard was now very red in the face. “What have I ever done to you?” he asked.

Eddie punched Richard in the teeth, knocking him to the floor.

Maggie picked up the lemon-cutting knife and drove it deep into the thigh of scar-faced Eddie as he brought his other leg back to kick her friend. Blood erupted onto her hand as the barman buckled, screaming as he fell onto his back. Maggie jammed the knife into the butcher block. Grabbing a halved lemon, she squatted over Eddie, squeezing the juice into his eyes.

More men now pushed into the room. They were nearly on top of each other as they stared in disbelief.

“Some party!” one shouted.

“Make a tourniquet!”

“Call for an ambulance!”

Richard sat on the floor, his head in his hands, a cut lip turning purple. Wheeler gaped at the blood dripping from Maggie’s fingers. Standing by the sink now, out of the way, she looked back at him, wanting to explain just how bad a piano player he was. Eddie whimpered like a puppy as his blood grew into a puddle around him. Maggie watched as someone looped a belt around his thigh. Soldiers knew what to do.

Vince helped Richard to his feet. “Get your hired-girl out of here.”

***


They walked a mile before a taxi stopped. Maggie had tried to reach Richard with apology after they darted out of the kitchen door, pleading with him to forgive her as they stumbled down the shadowy porch steps, dancing in front of him to get his attention as they crossed the tiny yard to the gate, yelping his name repeatedly, explaining that she always made a mess of things, that he was her only friend, that she just wanted to matter to someone.

The only verbal acknowledgement Richard made was to shout at Maggie to keep still, which made her fall to her knees on the sidewalk, shivering, her pile of hair finally falling apart. After lifting the girl to her feet, Richard buttoned his suit jacket around her shoulders, her threadbare coat still on the pile in the front room of a house she could never go back to. He rubbed her arms to warm them.

Richard was just as silent after entering the cab as he had been during their flight. He looked out the window at nothing, chewing his tongue.

Maggie’s head began to pound like one of the big artillery pieces set up in an open space at Santo Tomas, after liberation, exploding in white, aching thoughts. Her stomach roiled in response as the taxi flew over the hills, the streets now empty.

She rolled her forehead through the condensation her agony had spread across the window. “Why did he hit you? Can you at least tell me that?

“He had his reasons.”

Maggie swallowed a thick pool of spit. “Whatever they were, I didn’t want them to be true.” She gulped. “I’m going to be sick now.”

The cab slowed to the curb. Maggie opened the door, tipping her head down to retch into the gutter. Richard laid his handkerchief on her knee after she pulled herself upright, the muscles in her face pulled tight. After a minute of dull meter clicking, the driver pulled away.

Her head now felt like a towel being wrung out. The thin skin of her eyelids could barely contain her swelling eyeballs. They would explode against the windshield. She turned to Richard without opening her eyes. “Take me somewhere. Please. A hotel with a big bed. You can do anything you want to me.” Her stomach swayed. The cab was moving too fast again.

Richard scolded her. “Don’t talk like you’re trash.”

Maggie trembled as the cab lurched to a stop in front of the Bella Rosa. She gripped Richard’s knee, shouting foolishly. “I don’t want to go back to prison!”

“For God’s sake!” Twisting away from Maggie’s hand, Richard removed his wallet from a back pocket. “Look. I’ll say I found you on Pacific Avenue. And that I took you back there when we were finished. That’s all I can do.” He opened the wallet. “This is for being a good sport.”

Maggie grabbed the ten-dollar bill he offered her, crumpling it into a damp ball. Richard then held out his hand, motioning with his upturned fingers as if for her to come closer. Maggie worried for a second that she was going to have to do something repulsive to Richard in the back of the cab. She inched closer, her eyes trying to read the cabbie’s broad back.

“My jacket.”

She touched her chest, stroking the strange fabric. “Oh. Of course.” After fumbling with the buttons, she wriggled herself free and laid the suit jacket onto Richard’s knees. He must have been shivering in his shirt and tie. The brisk air on her neck did not make her feel any more settled in her stomach, and she nearly fell backwards out of the cab when she opened the door. While steadying herself on the sidewalk to say goodbye, the cab grumbled away. As Richard disappeared, a man whistled from a nearby shadow, making Maggie bolt for the familiar door of the restaurant, ripping at the buttons of her dress, tearing the key away from her brassiere. After letting herself into the hushed dining room, she slammed the heavy door behind her, locking herself in.

***


The police didn’t come for her the next day, or any day after that. Richard never returned to the restaurant for his plate of veal. Maggie occasionally wondered what his associates had done to him, if he’d been cast over the fantail into the sea. Sometimes she felt like that, like flotsam adrift on the rounding swell.


Russell Thayer is a retired printer who has rediscovered writing late in life. His stories have appeared in Bricolage and Pulp Modern. Never planning to tire of crime fiction and movies, he currently lives in Montana with his wife and dog.

Sunday, May 5, 2019

Notes and Updates

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